It takes a while. It takes a while of forcing himself to look at it from every angle, even though the easiest by far is the one where he's pissed and hurt, angry at Billy for not waiting, furious at Tony Stonem for existing, and not exactly pleased with the island's existence.
He's tired. He was tired when he got here and for all that the downtime with Billy has been great, it's only been a few days and now he's tired all over again, right back to feeling wrecked.
He has to remind himself of things, things that he knows but are getting blotted out by the red he's seeing. The time, mostly. The time is so important, except...
If it had been him, would he have done what Billy had? Of course his gut reaction was to say no, but he didn't know. He couldn't know. Or he hoped to hell he didn't ever find out, at least.
Because you were barely here a few hours before I ended it, but I couldn't not, because it's you.
He reminds himself of that, of Billy saying that, and holds onto it.
He doesn't know how long it's been, when he makes his way back upstairs. He stops in the doorway, arms tucked around himself, leaning on one shoulder.
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Date: 2011-11-24 04:44 am (UTC)He's tired. He was tired when he got here and for all that the downtime with Billy has been great, it's only been a few days and now he's tired all over again, right back to feeling wrecked.
He has to remind himself of things, things that he knows but are getting blotted out by the red he's seeing. The time, mostly. The time is so important, except...
If it had been him, would he have done what Billy had? Of course his gut reaction was to say no, but he didn't know. He couldn't know. Or he hoped to hell he didn't ever find out, at least.
Because you were barely here a few hours before I ended it, but I couldn't not, because it's you.
He reminds himself of that, of Billy saying that, and holds onto it.
He doesn't know how long it's been, when he makes his way back upstairs. He stops in the doorway, arms tucked around himself, leaning on one shoulder.
"....hey."